hi. its me. 10.02 PM and here’s me bawling my eyes out on top of my very own bed.
have u ever listen to this song Sebuah Kisah Klasik by Sheila On 7 and just be like “wow.. this song does giving me a slap on the face and oh god how time flies”?
Well, thats what i feel at the time.
I mean, i guess the pms does having a big role on this occasion but sometimes i think whatever i feel during the pms is just something that has been really bothering me but i just didn’t care because i didn’t want it to get in my way. If that makes any sense.
Though, it is now.
Oh hey its 10.12 PM already, well i’ve changed the song to Banda Neira’s Sampai Jadi Debu. Classic, i know. Well, these past 2 months had been awesome. I can say that everything went beyond my expectations. As u know, since i came back from France i am obligated to re-doing my senior year of HS here in J-Town. And thankfully (thank god u’re the best) everything went smoothly, i have new friends who are super duper ah-ma-zing. Like dude, if they’re not the kindest people in the world then i dont know what they are. I’m adapting to the old environment nicely, well i kinda had a few breakdowns along the way, but hey what can i say? i’m a sensitive little puppy. My other friends went to college, sadly, some chose to go to the far far away land... and thats what made me very angry at myself.
I just couldn’t bare with the thought of everyone is basically moving forward or climbing their own way to the top. I just couldn’t be more happy for them, and i’m super grateful with what i am today. Its just that, in my head, i still have this idea where we are actually still in the same environment, where we got to meet each other again, every single day. And i have to deal with that every damn time. But i’m getting better at this, no worries.
I wish them nothing but the very best.
Well thats all folks for today’s breaky-downy time with me. Make sure to watch To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. hehe. Dont miss me too much!
xo
have u ever listen to this song Sebuah Kisah Klasik by Sheila On 7 and just be like “wow.. this song does giving me a slap on the face and oh god how time flies”?
Well, thats what i feel at the time.
I mean, i guess the pms does having a big role on this occasion but sometimes i think whatever i feel during the pms is just something that has been really bothering me but i just didn’t care because i didn’t want it to get in my way. If that makes any sense.
Though, it is now.
Oh hey its 10.12 PM already, well i’ve changed the song to Banda Neira’s Sampai Jadi Debu. Classic, i know. Well, these past 2 months had been awesome. I can say that everything went beyond my expectations. As u know, since i came back from France i am obligated to re-doing my senior year of HS here in J-Town. And thankfully (thank god u’re the best) everything went smoothly, i have new friends who are super duper ah-ma-zing. Like dude, if they’re not the kindest people in the world then i dont know what they are. I’m adapting to the old environment nicely, well i kinda had a few breakdowns along the way, but hey what can i say? i’m a sensitive little puppy. My other friends went to college, sadly, some chose to go to the far far away land... and thats what made me very angry at myself.
I just couldn’t bare with the thought of everyone is basically moving forward or climbing their own way to the top. I just couldn’t be more happy for them, and i’m super grateful with what i am today. Its just that, in my head, i still have this idea where we are actually still in the same environment, where we got to meet each other again, every single day. And i have to deal with that every damn time. But i’m getting better at this, no worries.
I wish them nothing but the very best.
Well thats all folks for today’s breaky-downy time with me. Make sure to watch To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. hehe. Dont miss me too much!
xo